The Pnebleu Blog

So, I have both a Jaiku and a Twitter account.  I had basically abandoned my Twitter account for several months until today.  (I think I posted once or twice in that time frame.)  I really like Jaiku’s feed gathering feature, but Twitter lets me send SMS messages to post.  I have different communities on each.  I want to only use one, since I already have my Facebook status and MySpace status to update.  I can’t make a decision.  Another factor to be consider is that Twitter goes down a lot.  I like Jaiku’s badge on my blog.  When Twitter goes down, so does the Twitter badge.  I think I’m just going to do status on Twitter and let Jaiku gather all of my feeds, so I’ll just have to have both badges on here and on my Facebook page.  I don’t like compromises where neither side is a winner.

I’m fried. I’m tired. I’m ready for a break. I’m unmotivated. I’m glad the election is finally over (I don’t think the dems will have much in the way of power though, too small of a majority). I’m also ready for Thanksgiving (food!). I’m ready to look for a house. I want a new car. I’m getting new tires though. School sucks. My grades are slimly above average, but I don’t know if I can manage another 4.0 sweep. I’m ready for it to be over. I’m not ready to register for next semester. I don’t have time to talk to the people I need to talk to (ever, not just now). I’m being give more responsibilities at work, yet I’m probably only going to be there a little while longer. I want to learn CSS and read books, but I don’t have the time to. When I get free time, I just want to veg. I want to spend more time working, so that I can have some safety money, but I can’t. I want to do homework when I get home, but it never happens. I only do homework on the weekends, sometimes I don’t even do it. I want to spend more time with my younger siblings, my friends, and make new friends, but I don’t have many chances to. I’m making excuses. I am emotionally drained. How are you?

I don’t think this week could have gone much worse. Well, ok it could have.

All Week: The weather is unseasonably sweltering. It is so hot and humid!

Monday: I had to turn in two projects for different classes. I found out how bad I did on my exams. I thought I would do pretty well, but I’m in the mid-80s range. Not good for me. I also found out that I had an exam this week, that I had forgotten about.

Tuesday: I had PSYC 107 class. That’s bad enough to ruin anyone’s day. The power then proceeded to go out with an explosion at a sub-station near College Station. The power was out for up to 5 hours. Several people got stuck in elevators on campus. That might be fun if you were stuck with someone to talk to.

Wednesday: I wasn’t able to get into a study that I need for psychology class. On the way home my air conditioner in my car decided that the switch would break. Now, I can’t switch it off of defrost. The cold air still comes in, but in window and not the front vents. I don’t have the money to fix this right now!!

Thursday: I had an exam in Management 211 (my business law class) which turned out to be not so horrible; we’ll have to see how the grades describe the difficulty. Fortunately, I’m having dinner tonight with two friends from calculus class later year. Hopefully everything will work out right.

I have a question that somewhat bothers me, but not really. Is it sadistic for me to enjoy stepping on acorns and cracking and smashing them into the ground. I also like the sound it makes.

Ok, so it’s been four weeks since my last post. I do apologize. This semester is going to swamp me constantly. I’ve had three exams in 6 days with one more exam on Friday. I feel like I did okay; we’ll have to see. I’ve got two projects due on Monday and several chapters to read in all of my classes. But, I’m trying to, and for the most part succeeding, in staying on top of everything.

I do believe this culture of ours is overly stimulated and hyperactive. We always have something to fill in every last minute of our days. I’m guilty of this for sure. I have podcasts that fill up my “free” time. We all need to step back and just think; not about anything in particular or specific, just mentally float.

Something you may already know if you know me personally is that I’m a hopeless romantic. I’m the one who wants the guy to get the girl. Lately, I’ve just had a strong concern or desire to find a woman to complete my life. I want to find a soul mate to share everything with. I don’t know why I’ve been thinking about marriage lately; maybe it’s because I’ve been too busy to do anything social, but getting married has always been a strong desire of mine. Yes, I know, this is really deep so I’ll be moving on now.

I’ve had a pretty continuous argument with my dad about Wikipedia for the past couple of years. He says that it can’t be used for anything, because it is unreliable. I don’t believe that to be true. There have been many, many times that Wikipedia trumps any other place to find info for my college homework or studies. You have to take the info with a grain of salt, yes, but you have to do the same thing with college textbooks which are written by individually biased, intentionally or not, professors. Every time you go to a lecture or read a page out of a textbook, you are taking the word of the author that the information is accurate. With Wikipedia, you are taking the word of groups of people who have edited and are re-editing the page. Along with that, I believe that the history of the edits is available so viewers can go back and compare the different entries for false information or back and forth changes of a controversial issue. So, to sum all of this up, where ever you get your information, you must look at the source to verify accuracy.

Well it’s halfway through the second week of class and I definitely feel overwhelmed. I had to talk to Brook before I refocused and took on the challenge. I don’t know how I’m going to manage everything. But! But, I will! If there is anything I know about my life, it’s that God has given me the ability, so far, to excel in school. So, I will proceed with all of my wits about me to focus hard on the goal of continuing my 4.0!

Also, I still am in pain with my teeth, gums, and cheeks. I am stilling eating really soft foods. It hurts to smile. I don’t handle swallowing pills very well. (My subconscience keeps my mouth and throat from allowing the pill down.) Hopefully, it’s healing correctly and as fast as it can. I want to be done with it all!

Here’s another update about my condition. I haven’t taken anymore Vicodin. I didn’t really help too much. I didn’t have any side-effects from it, though. I’ve stopped bleeding and drooling. Yea! Eating is still a challenge, but I have to eat something because I need food to take the antibiotic. My jaw is sore. There are big holes in the back of my mouth, which freaked me out quite a bit. I’m worried about getting food in them. Hopefully I’ll be back to mostly normal on Monday.

Today, I went in for surgery to remove my wisdom teeth. I had all four of them removed. I have never had surgery or IV anesthesia. The IV didn’t hurt; it was just uncomfortable. They got it in my elbow on the first time. When they put in the medicine after a few seconds the ceiling started to shift up and down like sliding panels. Then I was gone; I don’t even know how it happened. When I woke up I felt ok. I was able to walk to the car. I wobbled from side to side a little, but not too much. I was giddy when I woke up and very talkative in the car, giggling occasionally. After I got home the anesthesia wore off and it started to hurt. I’ve been bleeding quite continuously, but it’s finally starting to slow down. I’m taking Vicodin, but it’s not too effective. I don’t really notice much of difference. Maybe I will tomorrow. I can’t wait until I can finally control my drooling again.